Joy To The World
I've never felt so Blessed.
There's so much Joy to share, so much Love to give.
I believe in WAITING.
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
I believe in WAITING.
The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.
I believe in WAITING.
He has made everything beautiful in its time.
I believe in WAITING
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I may not know what tomorrow holds for me but I know who holds tomorrow and I am confident for HE is faithful.
Few months ago, our small group leader asked us to write down a list of our “Ideal Man”. I was able to come up with a list and even titled it “Ang Tipo Kong Lalaki” (haha) but I actually had a bit of a struggle writing it.
I know I could have just wrote down “Tall, Dark and Handsome (and of course Mabango)” but I wasn’t really having a hard time thinking of what I would like for a future partner. The struggle was that, I was not answering “What” but “Who”. (haha, may person in mind pala).
I was in the middle of thinking of my “list” when I uttered “Father God, ano nga ba?” then HE gave me these words when I opened my Bible “…He speaks well and is a fine-looking man. And the LORD is with him.” (1 Samuel 16:18).
I recall smiling from ear to ear after reading those words. Kinilig ako! He speaks well and is a fine-looking man. ? Si God talaga oh! Alam yung gusto ko! Haha!
God really knows what we need because HE is our Father. How sweet is it to be loved by HIM. I didn’t even ask HIM but HE answered me.It was a rather funny moment with God and I still get kilig whenever I read that verse.
But the best part of it was the last sentence, “and the LORD is with him”. I felt like a princess super love by God because I am sure that HE would give me to one of HIS prince. The one HE have prepared for me. Pwede pala maiyak sa sobrang kilig? haha
Excited na ako! :) I am keeping this promise. Thank God for HE is a faithful God!
Jesus,
Can you hold my hand and lead the way
and hold me tighter when I try to run away
Can you pull me close when I try to get my way?
and squeeze my hand when things go astray?
Can you guide my heart and always help me pray?
Jesus, I have asked you these questions then lo and behold your words caught my attention.
“Romans 10:21d”
“You don’t have to like everyone…you have to love them.”
As the Jesus commanded “Love one another. As I have loved you”
“I will wait for you” by JANETTE…IKZ
So it seemed, that it was cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me..
So I took matters into my own hands… and ended up with him
Him who displayed the characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THIEF
So.. why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,
Cause it was ME who let him in…
Claiming we were “just friends”..
It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!
I was gonna make him ‘The One’..
You know… I was tired of being alone,
And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,
Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride..
A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the wait!
So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.
He had a… form of Godliness… but not much..
But hey, hey I can change him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me
Arteries so clogged with MY will, it blocked HIS Will from flowing through me
So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
That flat lined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back
Through my ignorance He sawed,
Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest
TO transplant Psalm 51:10
A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!
So now I fully understand,
Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,
How much I NEED to wait… for You.
See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..
Cause in the beginning was the Word
And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –
Which meant NOTHING.
He couldn’t even pray when I NEEDED him to
Asking him to fast would be absurd!
So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word…
But I know You.. ♥
You were already praying for me
Even never having met me
Let me assure you, I will wait for you.
I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you
To appease my boredom or to quench my thirstiness I have for attention
And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.
You know…. He ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?
His first name LUKE,
His last name WARM.
I, I won’t settle for false companionship
I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,
Attempting to find some closeness,
But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held
Cause ♫”all I gotta do is Say” No!
NO more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’
Passing winks & buying drinks,
I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!♫
Who flirts with the ideology of,
‘Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’
NO more.
I’ll stay in my bed… alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you
He won’t even come close,
Our fingers won’t even interlock
We won’t even exchange breath
Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.
I will no longer get weighted down,
From so-called friends & family talks,
About the concern for my biological clock
When I serve the Author of Time.
Who is NOT subject to time,
But I’M subject to Him,
He has the ability to STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…
So if we could role play,
You would be Abraham & I would be Sara
Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer
I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,
Made up of your rib Adam!
And once we meet, like electrons
I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.
We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.
We were all created in His image,
But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.
If I were to explain what you looked like,
You would have to look like a star,
A son of the Son..
I would gain energy simply from the light on me.
I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you ♥
And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,
Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,
Your faith will remind me of Abraham,
Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,
Your heart for God will remind me of David,
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,
And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
But Your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.
But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,
Cause His word will be tatted all over your heart.
And you will know me, and you will find me,
Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.
Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,
Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.
I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.
But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth
Only if you should see fit…
I desire Your will above mine,
So even if you call me to a life of singleness,
My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.
YOU are the greatest love story ever told,
The greatest story ever known
You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness
And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business
Oh, I will always be Yours!
And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning…
More than the watchmen wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT ♥
This would be forever my favorite verse. :)
God – the greatest lover
so loved – the greatest degree
the world – the greatest company
that He gave – the greatest act
His only begotten Son – the greatest gift
that whoever believes – the greatest simplicity
in Him – the greatest person
should not perish – the greatest promise
but – the greatest difference
have – the greatest certainty
everlasting life – the greatest possession
“That mini-heart attack whenever you couldn’t find your phone in your bag”, I read this in my twitter timeline and I couldn’t help but smile. It’s pretty funny because it happens to me all the time. I was reminded of this while reading Genesis Chapter 3 (The Fall of Man), I tried to imagine how Father God must have felt during that time? HE must have had a “massive-heart attack! And God never cease to amaze me because despite of what happened, HE was still the one who came for Adam and Eve and HE said to them “Where are you?”.
Good news is our Father is never changing. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. HE’s still the one calling for us. As for us, we haven’t change much since creation , we’re still hiding from HIM. We hid for we feel ashamed, unworthy, afraid but you know Jesus came to SEEK and to SAVE what was lost (Luke 19:10). This is another truth that we ought to know, that HE came into the world to save sinners (1 Timothy 1:15). We just have to let HIM find us.
“I was indeed a lost girl…until He found me”
I was reminded of these famous lines from the Adam Sandler movie Click while thinking of how much God loves us. Imagine yourself standing in front of HIM as you ask “Will you still love me in the morning?” and in a heartbeat HE answers you “Forever and Ever”. Wouldn’t it be the best feeling ever?!
Our Father is a faithful God and HIS love for us endures forever. That even if we are faithless and sinners He’ll still come for us and tirelessly pursue us.
One Pastor illustrate God’s love through another movie, The Vow. Leo faithfully pursued Page even though she could not remember him. And Page could not love him back because she could not remember how much Leo love her.
Sometimes, we are like Page, we forgot how much God loves us that we could not love HIM back. But the truth is we love because we were love first (1 John 4:19).The truth will set you free and knowing this truth has truly freed me!
Let’s be free! :)
The earth if full of HIS unfailing love…- Psalm 33:5
I was indeed a lost girl
I’ve been wandering restlessly
Until HE found me and saved me
HE have Loved me
Few years back…
Me: Tita, how old are you again?
Tita: 18.
Me: …18?
Tita: I stopped counting after I turned 18.
Whenever I recall this conversation I had with my Tita few years ago I still find it funny. I thought it’s just a way of tita not revealing her age but as year after year add up to my age, I sometimes tend to lost track as well. :)
Being a NBSB at 23 my relatives seems to put pressure on me year after year…
Relative: How old are you already?
Me: 23.
Relative: And you’re still single..
Me: Uh…hehe
Relative: Maybe you’re too choosy.
Me: But I don’t even have any to choose from..
—————-END OF CONVERSATION————————-
As I posted previously, I used to love being inlove that I worry to much if someone’s out there for me. But after knowing Jesus more and growing in HIS love everyday, I have never been more confident that someone was created for me and just for me.
As the Bible say, Our Father knows what we need even before we ask HIM and everything will happen on HIS perfect time. As HE promised “Everything on earth has it’s own time and it’s own season.”
And as I patiently wait for that perfect moment I pray “Let all that I am wait quietly before GOD for my hope is in HIM. HIS will is my WILL.
I’ll see you on the same day you’ll see me
I’ll know you on the same day you’ll know me
Someday,One day
HIS time will come I finally call you Day
