Joy To The World

I believe in WAITING.
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. 

I believe in WAITING.
The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.

I believe in WAITING.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. 

I believe in WAITING
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I may not know what tomorrow holds for me but I know who holds tomorrow and I am confident for HE is faithful.

I lay across my bed

Trying to find words in my head

I think I’ve lost it, I couldn’t write

It is depressing, this isn’t right

I pounded hard. I dig deep

But all I got was a goodnight sleep

I think I’ve lost it, I couldn’t write

My brain has frozen, this isn’t right

But something’s got to be moving

I got a pen and I started writing

NO. I still have it. Inks are still bleeding

I still have it. I’m still alive, my hearts still beating

***Got this fictional entry from my old blog. My oh my, I am really a drama queen***

Sunny Yellow

Bubby Pink

Clear Blue

Cool Green

The sky is clear and the sun is shinning brightly. The grass outside is even more enticing. Today’s a nice day to laugh, a good day to smile and a great day to hang your laundry to dry. On a great day like this I would be very happy mixing the colors around me but I just sit flatly on my pink bean bag, staring blankly on my yellow summer dress.

I sighed. The clear blue sky reminds me more of you. You always look and smell clean. The feelings I felt last night still lingers in every part of me. Last night was predictably surprising. I knew even before I started seeing you as a man that I’d be the one confessing. I knew even before planning my confession, you’d be saying the words I dread to hear.

“I only see you as a friend”

I know that line would be coming. I know it would hurt but I never knew how much it would or how deep it could wound me. You know the feeling when you’re about to be injected? You know that the needle would hurt but you’ll try to ignore the pain.  Yet, the needle would still sting like hell. That’s how I felt and still feeling right now.

Sunny Yellow

Bubby Pink

Clear Blue

Cool Green

As I sit here on my pink bean bag staring on my yellow summer dress engulf in this colorful melancholy, I smiled. I smiled for I know this pain would fade away, for the sting of the gigantic needle of rejection would gradually fade.

Life. It goes on.

I had Beyonce’s Smash Into You on repeat since yesterday and I think the repeat button will be hating me for the next few days (hehe). If there’s love at first sight, for me, there’s love at first note.But what made me really fall was this part of the song: 

I find myself in love racing the Earth
And I’m soaked in your love
And love was right in my path, in my grasp…
I wanna run and smash into you.

This words reminds me of how I felt the moment I knew who Jesus is in my life.

Before knowing Him, I thought He was so far away but when I believe in His truth I have learned that He had been with me all along and that He already love me even before I was born.So when I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior I just want to run to Him and be SMASHED in His love everyday because only in Him I am truly saved. As the Psalmist said “My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.”

Few months ago, our small group leader asked us to write down a list of our “Ideal Man”. I was able to come up with a list and even titled  it “Ang Tipo Kong Lalaki” (haha) but I actually had a bit of a struggle writing it.

I know I could have just wrote down “Tall, Dark and Handsome (and of course Mabango)” but I wasn’t really having a hard time thinking of what I would like for a future partner. The struggle was that, I was not answering “What” but “Who”. (haha, may person in mind pala).

I was in the middle of thinking of my “list” when I uttered “Father God, ano nga ba?” then HE gave me these words when I opened my Bible “…He speaks well and is a fine-looking man. And the LORD is with him.” (1 Samuel 16:18).

I recall smiling from ear to ear after reading those words. Kinilig ako! He speaks well and is a fine-looking man. ? Si God talaga oh! Alam yung gusto ko! Haha! 

God really knows what we need because HE is our Father. How sweet is it to be loved by HIM. I didn’t even ask HIM but HE answered me.It was a rather funny moment with God and I still get kilig whenever I read that verse.

But the best part of it was the last sentence, “and the LORD is with him”. I felt like a princess super love by God because I am sure that HE would give me to one of HIS prince. The one HE have prepared for me. Pwede pala maiyak sa sobrang kilig? haha

Excited na ako! :) I am keeping this promise. Thank God for HE is a faithful God! 

Jesus,

Can you hold my hand and lead the way
and hold me tighter when I try to run away

Can you pull me close when I try to get my way?
and squeeze my hand when things go astray?

Can you guide my heart and always help me pray?

Jesus, I have asked you these questions then lo and behold your words caught my attention.

                                   “Romans 10:21d”

He’s the One that I’ve been waiting for.
He’s the One I’ve been longing for.
He’s the One who loves me unselfishly.
He’s the One who endured all pain for me.
He’s the One who died on the cross for me
He’s the One who paid for all my sins, the One who set me free.
The one who FOUND,SAVE and LOVE me.

My One True Love.
My Lord.My Savior.
JESUS CHRIST. 

This would be forever my favorite verse. :)

God – the greatest lover
so loved – the greatest degree
the world – the greatest company
that He gave – the greatest act
His only begotten Son – the greatest gift
that whoever believes – the greatest simplicity
in Him – the greatest person
should not perish – the greatest promise
but – the greatest difference
have – the greatest certainty
everlasting life – the greatest possession

“That mini-heart attack whenever you couldn’t find your phone in your bag”, I read this in my twitter timeline and I couldn’t help but smile. It’s pretty funny because it happens to me all the time. I was reminded of this while reading Genesis Chapter 3 (The Fall of Man), I tried to imagine how Father God must have felt during that time? HE must have had a “massive-heart attack! And God never cease to amaze me because despite of what happened, HE was still the one who came for Adam and Eve and HE said to them “Where are you?”.

Good news is our Father is never changing. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. HE’s still the one calling for us. As for us, we haven’t change much since creation , we’re still hiding from HIM. We hid for we feel ashamed, unworthy, afraid but you know Jesus came to SEEK and to SAVE what was lost (Luke 19:10). This is another truth that we ought to know, that HE came into the world to save sinners (1 Timothy 1:15). We just have to let HIM find us.

“I was indeed a lost girl…until He found me” 

I was reminded of these famous lines from the Adam Sandler movie Click while thinking of how much God loves us. Imagine yourself standing in front of HIM as you ask “Will you still love me in the morning?” and in a heartbeat HE answers you “Forever and Ever”. Wouldn’t it be the best feeling ever?!

Our Father is a faithful God and HIS love for us endures forever. That even if we are faithless and sinners He’ll still come for us and tirelessly pursue us.

One Pastor illustrate God’s love through another movie, The Vow. Leo faithfully pursued Page even though she could not remember him. And Page could not love him back because she could not remember how much Leo love her.

Sometimes, we are like Page, we forgot how much God loves us that we could not love HIM back. But the truth is we love because we were love first (1 John 4:19).The truth will set you free and knowing this truth has truly freed me!

Let’s be free! :)

The earth if full of HIS unfailing love…- Psalm 33:5

I was indeed a lost girl
I’ve been wandering restlessly
Until HE found me and saved me
HE have Loved me